today i feel stronger mentally than i ever have before. physically, not so much, but let’s not dwell on that in this post. this post is about high hopes, dreams, life, people, and the beauty i can currently see and feel around me.
i am realising that i have so much around me, and inside of me. i am capable. of what? i am not so sure, but i will figure that one out one day.
i need to start appreciating the positives in my life.
the amazing, beautiful people i have been fortunate enough to meet, and converse with, those just in passing, but especially those i’ve managed to keep around.
i live in a beautiful house, with a loving family. i know i get the itch to leave, and i know i always will, but this is home, and it always will be, no matter where i am inside my mind.
i for the first time in my life have future goals i am working to achieve. this is a huge sign of me being back on track, and i need to focus on this more.
it’s 12:30 am, and i am sitting in my bedroom with a cup of tea, listening to what i class as some of the most beautiful, inspiring music, and i have a smile on my face. in my past, a smile was rare, now a smile is a common feature on my face.
i am finally learning to be myself, a person who i can admire and love more often than hate. i will always have my flaws, my illness, my problems, but times like tonight make that okay.